I kept trying to fix it – a relationship with a friend. I could not figure out why, after years of doing life together, I could not connect with her. Phones calls, text messages, an encouraging card in the mail, with no response. I thought, maybe when I see her at church we can sit down and talk this over, whatever ‘this’ is. When I did see her one Sunday, she sat on the other side of the church and left before I could reach her. I was baffled, dismayed, hurt, and feeling so rejected. It broke a part of me.
Sitting quietly with the Lord, I cried out to him, “Why? What did I do to her Lord? Show me how to fix this.” God gently reminded me that we come to him as vessels desperately needing his healing and transformational love. It is through our own brokenness that we seek the Potters hands to put us back together in a way that does not compare to our former self – a new creation. We come to him because we are broken for a reason – to be set free.
It was not anything I had done, more so, what she needed to learn about herself, her relationships, and her Heavenly Father. I could not fix it because it was broken for a reason – to be set free and transformed. Our brokenness is not always meant to be put back together the same way it was. Sometimes, we desperately seek to repair relationships that are so broken, only to satisfy our own selfish desires, neediness, loneliness, without consideration that God might be doing something for us, not against us. Or that it’s not even about us, but for the other person.
My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.Psalm 51:17 NIV
Breakthroughs happen when we allow ourselves to be broken before the Father, seeking His healing comfort, wisdom, grace, mercy, and love. If we keep going back to the broken pieces trying to fix them, we might miss out on the new thing, the next best thing that God has for our future. We cannot step forward if we keep stepping back.
The Lord is close to the brokenheartedPsalm 34:18 NIV
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Beloved, breakthroughs are often painful as we struggle to free ourselves of the lies we believed, hurtful relationships, self-destructive thoughts, habits, and behaviors. In the breaking we think we are losing something, and it needs to be found again, which is a lie we have been deceived into believing. When I lose 10 lbs., I sure don’t want to find them again. The breaking is setting us free from what is keeping us in bondage, holding us back, and stunting our personal growth. Do not stay stuck. Take the hand of Jesus and step out of your brokenness into the newness of God’s next best thing for you.